Current Mood: sore & tired & frustrated

So Yesterday’s appointment went as well as you’d expect it to go when you’re watching the dentist putting weird things in your mouth.

It was crown lengthening. So so I’ve got some stitches along the gums of my bottom teeth. I swear this guy that does this is obsessed with perfect teeth and gums :-p

So I slept all day (it was a short appointment I think, just a few hours) and woke up…. I don’t know when. It was still dark. I think it was today. My face is all swollen up and gums are sore (umm duh?) and hurts to eat blahblah. All in all its expected and I feel fine about it. I have to get the stitches out in 2 weeks which means PUTTING OFF EUGENE FOR TWO FUCKING WEEKS! >.<

And I went poking around on SL and got myself a bunny av for my alt…. ZOMG she’s so cute.

AND I’ve been eagerly awaiting Katie’s package ^-^ It should be here very very soon, if it gets here today at all…

On the NaNo front: I’m almost 5,000 words behind! Which wouldn’t panic me so much if I actually know more about what I was writing.

Normally, writing a novel is like walking through a dark cave with a flashlight. You go along with your light pointed ahead of you and you can see some of whats coming. This year, I’m like the retarded OCD jerk (Mr Bean?)… slowly working my way through the cave but my light isn’t pointed ahead, its pointing down and I’m wandering off to the side and poking at rocks and… you get the idea.

Whitepaws keeps joking that I should just write a 50k porn novel.

I’m SO very tempted!

Current Mood: confused & depressed

… to tell you the truth i was feeling like shit.
i remembered you (not that i had forgotten)
and doodled a million little hearts.
they somehow magically represent my feelings for you
in a basic, primal way.

then i drew cute little box houses all on a hill.
in my little world maybe we live together in one of them.
your pick.

or i’ll let you doodle your own.

do you love me back?

[ ] Yes
[ ] No
[ ] Maybe

Current Mood: love_all_around

Music

… because if we could have crawled into each other at inception,
don’t you think my world, our creation, could have been better?

… because at the end of the day,
we can do our business in front of each other.

and what the fuck have I been doing??

I don’t know… you tell me!

Playing Second Life, that’s about it.  No Suziblu, no Stewart and Colbert, no writing, knitting, crocheting… not even any sunlight.  No painting, no stamping no caring.  No shit.

Though I have been busily trying to plan what to do for NaNoWriMo this year.  I really want to write about somebody else’s story on Q’lanth but I have a feeling I’ll just be starting the next story, leaving off where I left off with Rayna… poor Rayna.

…. poor Zander O.o

I’ll try to start giving a shit…. stupid blahs :(

So the other day I rediscovered SecondLife and I’m addicted.

Okay, so here’s what happened (this is not the dream part, just the set-up):

This morning I was on SecondLife and I was exploring every nook and cranny possible. I landed myself in a Lesbian place which was entertaining me because I’m obsessed with animations. You see, In SecondLife, you can “sit’ places and different places will animate your body different ways. So you can really shake it up on a dance floor… or apparently in bed.

So I was wandering around this big room with all these naughty animation places. I wasn’t using them, just being very amused by the titles like… “Lick” and “spank” and well you know. Naughty stuff.

There was a set by a bed called Girl 1 and Girl 2. The idea here is 2 people take up those places and they animated together. I thought it would be fairly innocent. So I “sat” there and I dunno… the animation was just standing there or something. This female character walks up next to me and PMs me asking if she could play with me. Me, the innocent type said “sure, why not! lol”. Because in my mind I was thinking what does this animation set do?

So she “joined” me and I got this pop up window with a list of options, I guess. like… “lesbian” and… I don’t know, other things. So I picked “lesbian” and we ended up on the floor with me tonguing her. O.o I was like WTF. So she starts PMing me - cyber! end ended up as accidental lesbian cyber sex. Ohhhkay. So that pop up window kept popping up wanting me to push buttons. There was no cancel or anything.

Meanwhile this chick is digging it and I’m thinking “ehh… whatever… what do these other animations do?”

So long story just a little bit shorter, we ended up in another place fingering each other. That didn’t last long, so I told her pretty much that I wasn’t interested in continuing and it wasn’t really my thing and we had a short conversation after that about nothing in particular… just saying that it wasn’t my thing. I apologized and felt bad because we both obviously had different things in mind :-p

SO…. I ended up elsewhere after that, in Yarntopia where I got to hang out with knitters and I was given a really coll knitting prop/animation so that’s keeping my animation-curiosity at bay.

Awhile later I went to bed and had this dream:

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